FIVE years

Another year has passed and it's still not any easier.

I know he's here in spirit and I know I will get to see him again someday and I know he knows what is going on in my life, but sometimes that just doesn't help the fact that I want him here with me.

I want him to meet my Amazing husband

I want him to hold his sweet grandson

I want to call and talk to him

I want to go camping and fishing with him

I want to be able to ask him for advice

There are so many things I want but that I just can't have. 

It's hard. 

Really hard.

But, I do have amazing memories of my Dad!

That is what I try to focus on the most.

Those memories are what gets me through the heartache.

Knowing that I will get to see him again someday is what puts a smile on my face through the tears.

Last weekend, my family went to the exact spot where my Dad passed away while hunting.

I love going there.

His spirit is so close.

It's so calm and peaceful.

He really couldn't have been in a more Beautiful place!!

Gros Ventre

It's hunting season so we had to wear orange :)

Horse corrals at their camp

10ish years later and his coffee mug is still there (the tree it was hanging in has since fallen over)

I miss you and Love you SO much Dad!!!!