FIVE years

Another year has passed and it's still not any easier.

I know he's here in spirit and I know I will get to see him again someday and I know he knows what is going on in my life, but sometimes that just doesn't help the fact that I want him here with me.

I want him to meet my Amazing husband

I want him to hold his sweet grandson

I want to call and talk to him

I want to go camping and fishing with him

I want to be able to ask him for advice

There are so many things I want but that I just can't have. 

It's hard. 

Really hard.

But, I do have amazing memories of my Dad!

That is what I try to focus on the most.

Those memories are what gets me through the heartache.

Knowing that I will get to see him again someday is what puts a smile on my face through the tears.

Last weekend, my family went to the exact spot where my Dad passed away while hunting.

I love going there.

His spirit is so close.

It's so calm and peaceful.

He really couldn't have been in a more Beautiful place!!

Gros Ventre

It's hunting season so we had to wear orange :)

Horse corrals at their camp

10ish years later and his coffee mug is still there (the tree it was hanging in has since fallen over)

I miss you and Love you SO much Dad!!!!

My Favorite

For those who have been following my blog for a while, know how much I LOVE Fall!!!!

There really isn't a better time of year. 

Hoodies

Scarves

Jackets

Jeans

Beautiful Leaves

Hats

Pumpkin

Cool Crisp Air

This year I wanted to drive through canyons and go on hikes.

Alpine Loop

Bair Canyon Trail

 

Mueller Park

Hollbrook Canyon

Pregnant or Not Pregnant?

One year ago today, I stopped by Walgreens on my way to work and picked up a Pregnancy Test!

My plan was to wait until I got home that night and take it with Eric but I couldn't wait any longer!!

I went in the bathroom and waited for the answer. I swear it took longer than a minute. 

"Pregnant"

What?? Am I reading this right??

Oh no!! What's Eric going to say?? 

Yay!!! I'm SO excited!!!! 

Wait, did I Really get pregnant that fast?? 

I can't WAIT to tell Eric and my family!!

I had many thoughts run through my head in a matter of seconds. 

I took a picture of the test and text it to Eric!!

He immediately called me and what a relief...he wasn't even mad. He was actually excited!!

I think we were both really excited and a bit relieved.

As some of you know, we were a little worried that I wasn't going to get pregnant very fast if at all based on my past.

Eric wanted to wait a year before we started trying and I wanted to start trying right away, but because we were scared that it might never happen, we decided to stop protecting hoping that I would get pregnant within a year.

Two weeks later...as Eric put it "I put one past the goalie"

Although this isn't the way we planned or thought things would go, we are SO happy it all happened the way it did. 

38 weeks and 3 days later...the Lord blessed us with a healthy baby boy!!

We Love you Kyson Michael!!

Elder Brough

He Did It!!!!

Jared is on a Mission!!

He was called to serve in the California Arcadia Mission.

I can't believe he actually did it and anyone who knows my brother would agree. But...I couldn't be more proud of him. He has changed his life around and has become an Amazing young man!

Last Supper - Macaroni Grill

August 22, 2012 - MTC

Saying Good Bye was hard but I know he's doing a Great thing!!!